ok so i'm betraying xanga for another blog company

you can text me to find out why


on another note: what i find annoying are people who exclaim being broke, yet are publicly spending big.

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i never told you - colbie caillat

I just finished planning my last academic full year (and maybe a quarter in fall 2012) @ucsd with intense research and some calls to department advisers.
I feel scared of completing this whole college routine.. because unlike back in the high school days, there is no definite next step (inevitably going to a college), it's the "real world" now. Once I come back from Italy things are going to finish up so fast! With graduation, then spending a crazy last quarter with my lovely roommates, sorority sisters, and boyfriend (it will probably most of their last classes at ucsd).. etc. It's time to think about whether I want to take the GMAT and go to grad school right away AND WHERE for that --or if I want to work/intern first and then apply to grad school? Do i want to go to graduate school abroad or in the states?

We're all growing up so fast
Yesterday - The Beatles

I LOVE MY LITTLE <3
  and her little haha



anyway.
I went from trying to dive deep into Love to being left in an emotional limbo.
I guess it's good to not be too into something / someone ... and just Be balanced and doing my own thing .
If you care too much, people think you're "whipped" and too overprotective.. suffocating..not chill.. or whatever. And if you aren't considerate, the boys all talk..and say you're a bad gf? Then what?

This relationship shit is so hard, I understand why (my twin) Caitlin says she doesn't want to deal with a relationship right now because "boys are stupid". I admire her. She's super pretty, outgoing, and has so many potential guys that are into her but she holds her ground throughout it all and ignores everything and just has fun<3 I'm glad I have a good network of amazing women to fall back on when my thoughts get ahead of me. We all learn from each others experience w/ sensitive yet real advice. Heartless beats .

good times should be natural.  bad times test one's strength



p.s. xanga is getting so ugly & super congested .. i want to switch to blogspot or one less messy ):